So you have a baby?

So are you one of the ladies that had a baby outside of marriage? Well, I have good news for you, life isn't over. God still loves you. You made a mistake and a consequence of that mistake just happened to be a baby. God will see you thru it though.  I was one of the ladies who got pregnant out of wedlock. I not only got pregnant once but twice outside of marriage. My first time getting pregnant I was 16. When I found out I was devastated and thought my life was over. Little did I know that my life was just beginning. I hid my pregnancy from my parents until I was around 6 months pregnant. I just couldn't bare being a disappointment to my parents but my mom knew something was up and made me take a pregnancy test. All I could do was take the test and I came out of the bathroom crying. She was devastated and she cried with me. My dad on the other hand was really upset with me and wanted me to have an abortion but I knew that was out of the question. After days of being upset they started to come around and supported me thru it til the very end and even to this day. Having my daughter was a very life change experiencing. My delivery with her was very scary. I developed severe eclampsia with her and had a seizure as she was crowning. The doctor tried his best to deliver her but it just wasn't happening. So I ended up being sedated to have an emergency c section. It was truly a scary scary scary situation but I delivered a 7lb 9oz baby girl that goes by the name Anna-Grayce. It's only by the grace of God me and my daughter are here. All the prayers that were said on our behalf are the reason we are here today. The first 3 years of her life were a true roller coaster! I started my senior year with a 5 week old baby girl. I also graduated high school about a month and a half before she turned one! I also started Cosmetology school 2 months after graduating high school. Graduated with high honors a year later even though I decided not to pursue that as a career. I worked for about a year before I found myself pregnant again at 20.. Right before we found out we were engaged but he said he felt like things were to good to be true so he broke up with me. The moment I found out I felt so alone and broke down and cried and cried and cried but I knew I was the reason I was in that situation. I knew that being disobeying God was the reason I was in that situation. After a few days my now husband finally came around to the fact that we were expecting baby number two. At 11 weeks pregnant we decided to tie the knot. At 12 weeks pregant I was experiencing complications. I woke up and had blood just gushing so I rushed to the emergency room and the first person to rush to my side was my dad and I couldn't be anymore grateful for that. I was told I was possibly having a miscarriage and there was nothing they could do for me so they sent me home and put me on bed rest and told me to follow up with my doctor. I can remember laying in bed crying asking God to please take the pain away and let my baby survive. He listened to my prayers because now I have a happy healthy 14 month old. He knew the desire of my heart was to carry a healthy baby. (Psalms 37:4) I can't thank Him enough for allowing me to be a mama to my precious baby boy. The rest of my pregnancy was smooth sailing besides having headaches and blurry vision. 2 days after having my son I went home thinking everything was gonna be ok. I was wrong though I was rushed to the hospital with the worst pain ever in my neck and the worst ever headache. So in the er they did a cat scan and I was taken to the icu because they said I had blood on my brain. To this day I still haven't been able to get my situation straightened out but I know God won't leave or forsake me! (Deuteronomy 31:8) He works ALL things for my good! (Romans 8:28) God has been so unbelievably good to my kids,myself,and my husband. So just because you have kids outside of marriage doesn't mean you can't come back to the love of God. It's by his grace we are saved not by our actions. We will never be good enough but I thank God that he loves me unconditionally and takes me back no matter how far I stray off the path!

Much love,
Heather

Marriage

Ladies, do you desire to be married? Are you tired of just being the "girlfriend?" Well I got news for you! If you can't submit to God you sure can't submit to no man! God calls us to be submissive to our spouse!(Ephesians 5:22-33) Oh, you're tired of just being the girlfriend but you keep giving boyfriend the husband role! Do you really think he's gonna marry you? If you're letting him live rent free, have sex with him when he wants it, treat you any kind of way and expect him to wanna marry you that just ain't gonna happen! He ain't gon put no ring on your finger when you're already giving everything away for free. You expect respect but you don't even respect yourself! Let me tell you something get lost in God and let him heal you from the inside out so he can give you the man he has for you! You first have to submit to God and listen to his commands before you can submit to a man! (James 4:7) You truly have to rely on God. Ain't no man gonna love you right til you give it to God to handle. You're tired of heartbreak but you continue to open that door to that toxic relationship! God can't prepare you for the right one if you continue to hold on to the wrong one when God has clearly tried to remove this person from your life. Stop trying to do it your way and give it to God! Put a do not disturb sign on your heart and let God heal you! He will bring you the desires of your heart as soon as you submit to him with your whole heart! (Psalm 37:4) Let God prepare you for the right one and let him heal you from the inside out. Stop jumping from man to man and doing it your way! Marriage God's way is the BEST way!

True Love Waits

As Valentine's Day draws near I can only think of one thing to post about which is TRUE LOVE WAITS! Before I came to Christ and decided to follow him whole heartly I was awakening love before its time! I was jumping from guy to guy to guy just because I didn't want to be single. I was rushing something I wasn't ready for. I was rushing something God wasn't ready for me to have! I wasn't honoring God with my body! I was with guy after guy trying to fill a void in my life that only God could fill. I was believing I was worthless and not good enough so why does it even matter. Then I came to a point where society was telling me it was normal to be sexually active before marriage. Believing that put me in some bad situations. I thought being sexually active was the only way to keep a guy and to make him love me but boy was I wrong. It led to a lot of turmoil! I experienced heartache after heartache. I would cry and cry and cry thinking what did I do wrong? What I did wrong was believe that a man could satisfy me and love me in the way that I wanted. Let me tell you sex before marriage IS NOT worth it one bit! God designed sex for marriage and now I understand why. Its not to deprive you of something great but for you to enjoy something great with the one person God has designed for you! If you are already sexually active and you aren't married it isn't too late to stop and say let's wait until marriage. God will forgive you! We are all sinners and we all fall short (Roman 3:23)  but by God's grace we are forgiven even when we don't deserve it. It's NEVER to late to honor God with your body! He wants a relationship with you regardless of what you've done! He has a divine purpose for your life. Instead of awakening love before it's time be content being single and seeking God so when it is time for you to fall in love it's with the right person God has for you! Be patient! Awakening love before it's time will only cause heartache you don't wanna deal with. I will leave you with this verse Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires. Song of Songs 8:4

Love,
Heather