So are you one of the ladies that had a baby outside of marriage? Well, I have good news for you, life isn't over. God still loves you. You made a mistake and a consequence of that mistake just happened to be a baby. God will see you thru it though. I was one of the ladies who got pregnant out of wedlock. I not only got pregnant once but twice outside of marriage. My first time getting pregnant I was 16. When I found out I was devastated and thought my life was over. Little did I know that my life was just beginning. I hid my pregnancy from my parents until I was around 6 months pregnant. I just couldn't bare being a disappointment to my parents but my mom knew something was up and made me take a pregnancy test. All I could do was take the test and I came out of the bathroom crying. She was devastated and she cried with me. My dad on the other hand was really upset with me and wanted me to have an abortion but I knew that was out of the question. After days of being upset they started to come around and supported me thru it til the very end and even to this day. Having my daughter was a very life change experiencing. My delivery with her was very scary. I developed severe eclampsia with her and had a seizure as she was crowning. The doctor tried his best to deliver her but it just wasn't happening. So I ended up being sedated to have an emergency c section. It was truly a scary scary scary situation but I delivered a 7lb 9oz baby girl that goes by the name Anna-Grayce. It's only by the grace of God me and my daughter are here. All the prayers that were said on our behalf are the reason we are here today. The first 3 years of her life were a true roller coaster! I started my senior year with a 5 week old baby girl. I also graduated high school about a month and a half before she turned one! I also started Cosmetology school 2 months after graduating high school. Graduated with high honors a year later even though I decided not to pursue that as a career. I worked for about a year before I found myself pregnant again at 20.. Right before we found out we were engaged but he said he felt like things were to good to be true so he broke up with me. The moment I found out I felt so alone and broke down and cried and cried and cried but I knew I was the reason I was in that situation. I knew that being disobeying God was the reason I was in that situation. After a few days my now husband finally came around to the fact that we were expecting baby number two. At 11 weeks pregnant we decided to tie the knot. At 12 weeks pregant I was experiencing complications. I woke up and had blood just gushing so I rushed to the emergency room and the first person to rush to my side was my dad and I couldn't be anymore grateful for that. I was told I was possibly having a miscarriage and there was nothing they could do for me so they sent me home and put me on bed rest and told me to follow up with my doctor. I can remember laying in bed crying asking God to please take the pain away and let my baby survive. He listened to my prayers because now I have a happy healthy 14 month old. He knew the desire of my heart was to carry a healthy baby. (Psalms 37:4) I can't thank Him enough for allowing me to be a mama to my precious baby boy. The rest of my pregnancy was smooth sailing besides having headaches and blurry vision. 2 days after having my son I went home thinking everything was gonna be ok. I was wrong though I was rushed to the hospital with the worst pain ever in my neck and the worst ever headache. So in the er they did a cat scan and I was taken to the icu because they said I had blood on my brain. To this day I still haven't been able to get my situation straightened out but I know God won't leave or forsake me! (Deuteronomy 31:8) He works ALL things for my good! (Romans 8:28) God has been so unbelievably good to my kids,myself,and my husband. So just because you have kids outside of marriage doesn't mean you can't come back to the love of God. It's by his grace we are saved not by our actions. We will never be good enough but I thank God that he loves me unconditionally and takes me back no matter how far I stray off the path!
Much love,
Heather
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